Loneliness is a sad Feeling

Sometimes I think about how it would feel if I knew no one. I wonder how would it be like if I were to live that way?  Well this morning I felt so lonely that I wanted to cry.  This may sound super emo but I am trying to take it in as an experience that will make me stronger.

This is my third time moving up to Austin and each time it is something new that has to get the most of me.  I can recall the first time I moved here I was about 20 years old. I knew no one but I had my cousin and her husband as family support here. They took good care of me, I cannot complain.  Then the second time I moved up I lived alone and had no problems but getting used to the difference of people and their character and demeanor is what got to me. I could not understand how people could be so cold without knowing me.  My friends know me as a cheerful, talkative and very outspoken person that I could not understand why some people I encountered were just plain rude.  I started to think maybe it had to do with their upbringing, or maybe it was me.  I literally was so pensive about this that I decided to take control of the situation. I just let me be me. If they did not like me it was their problem not mine. So, I got passed that year.

But, now I find myself in a rather different situation.  Lately Lola, my car, has been giving me problems. She had a sensor that needed to be replaced and then she was good for a while until yesterday. As I was driving home, she warned me again that she may be sick. So, I took her in to the doctor, car repair shop, and they are trying to figure out what is wrong. That is gonna cost me some good earned money! I think that is the most depressing part for me. I feel like I am sacrificing my MAC make-up and Gianni Bini heels, for car repairs....but I chose Lola because she take me everywhere and without her, I am lonely. I think that is why I feel so sad.  I am used to being with her, enjoying our random drives to meet with friends or to take a scenic route home. I think I am missing her and being away from her is what is killing me. I know I may sound crazy but I love my car. Its just a little Chrysler PT Cruiser but she does the job for me.

Other than Lola, I miss my parents. I am not even sure if it is them that I miss or the fact that I don't got anyone to rely on here. I mean I do got friends but they got their lives to worry about.  The last thing I would want to do is inconvenience anyone. When it comes to my stuff, I am used to taking control of the situation because if anything goes wrong I am the only one to blame.  But then again, it always is good to have friends I can count on.  Iris and Maribel, you girls were always their for me when I needed a ride to the car shop or anywhere back home in good ole Edinburg Texas. You guys didn't ask any questions, you just wanted to help me out in anyway till I got what I needed.   For that I thank you, I am blessed that God has put you two in my life. I also acknowledge that I can be a pain in the ass but you guys love me and see beyond that.  That is what makes you guys even more awesome!

Now, I am at work working on legislation and hoping to get through the rest of the day.

Tootles.

Morning Sunshines

Woke up this morning....not necessarily rested because my back was killing me. I felt like I was not gonna be able to get out of my bed.

Last night, I enjoyed some quality time at DK Sushi Bar. I tasted the Volcano and Jalapeno roll! Oh my, SO delicious.  Plus, I felt like I was not eating to much, I mean sushi is healthy right?

This is the VOLCANO ROLL :)

JALAPENO ROLL - "YUM-O"

This was too pretty of pic not to post

So, got home and head to bed early. I felt super exhausted for some reason. I think I may have to do a walk every morning and stretch my back more.  But, this morning I felt good. I have taken a different route to work that beats the traffic and I enjoy the scenery.

I get to work, start reading up on news on my media outlets till I got distracted by a UT gunmen breaking news on twitter and LIVE News by KEYE.  I felt so worried for Felicia an intern in the office. I felt like crying for some reason. I felt relieved when she messaged me that she was okay. Thank goodness.

I have to say the response by UT-PD, APD, DPS was amazing. They are still doing some sweeping on campus but for now I have been alerted by our capitol DPS that UT is on lock down and we should avoid travel near the area.

My day will be filled with news updates from back home, Austin and researching legislation. Tonight, I should start writing my chapter three and I will be officially done!

Till next time. Tootles.

I feel like I got the Early Bird special!

Good morning!  I woke up today like I had over slept. I said my morning prayer "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference." This prayer helps me get through the morning and through the rest of the day.

My car had broken down and I was not quite sure how I was gonna get it fixed when miraculously the car turned on Sunday evening.  I was relieved because now I can drive it to a shop.  I got all dressed and ready for work with enough time to stop and get the car checked. I was referred to Leonard's Muffler Shop on South First and St. Elmo! They really put a smile on my face. All my anxieties and worries were gone! I could not help it but to do a review on it.  Aside from waiting, when waiting at shops can be so boring and manly, well let me tell you. They had this really nice coffee machine that I gladly entertained myself with! Plus they had really good creamers.

Alright, I may sound like such a girl but lets just say I am a girl who knows a good deal when she gets one. Being away from home and my personal mechanic I found a shop that will def take care of me. I mean, a single woman that is independent, I feel like I found heaven. But, I think if I had a man this situation would have been less stressful...I think.

Anyhow, I am working on research in the office. I feel like it may be a long day but I sure hope it goes by fast. I am getting into the grove of things and I really want to meet new friends. So, this afternoon I am hitting up a sushi karaoke place with my girlfriend Sabrina and friends. I was told it gets fun there so I am looking forward to it.

Alright, till the next time. Tootles.

This Game Called Life Is So Serious

Waking up early everyday is becoming a pattern for me. Granted, I am used to waking up thirty minutes before I actually have to head out of the house. But, now I am trying to change that pattern. Lately my alarm has been set at 5:30am and I tend to get out of bed by 7:15am. Reading that sentence makes me want to be a wee bit more responsible.  Also, I am trying to go to bed early so that I don't have such a problem when I wake up.  Alright, like I was saying, I woke up and departed to Jack Allen's Kitchen with my friend Sabrina. I am so glad she invited me because I had been neglecting myself of any social interaction.  If you know me, that is so not normal for me. So Sabrina picked me and we had a nice chat on the way. It feels so heart warming when I can hang out with good friends and especially those who come from the same town as I do, well the Rio Grande Valley.

Brunch at Jack Allen's Kitchen was too good to be true. I mean I arrived starving! Well, not literally.  I enjoyed good company and meeting someone new, Kelly. She is the Executive Manager for Yelp.com. Lets just say I was really impressed and since cooking and eating food is my other hobby other than keeping up with politics, I decided to get more involved about Yelp.com...I have officially done my first review. That was so fun and interesting.

I am not sure if I have mentioned this but I now reside in Austin Texas. I have been here for two weeks now and lets just say I need to make some improvements in my life. I need to create a better circle of friends, for example, surround myself around those who enjoy talking politics and social issues and especially with those who enjoy dancing and having random fun adventures.  My goal is to be spontaneous and spend the least amount of money possible...I think I can do this.

The whole reason for my relocation was my job promotion. I got promoted to Capitol Chief of Staff for State Representative Aaron Pena, District 40 of the Texas House of Representatives.  I must say that even though I am going on 7 years with him, this new transition has me on my toes. I always strive to be the best and I feel like I am at the point where I can apply everything I have learned through my education, life and institutional experience to make a difference.  I may look young but rest assured I mean business.

So, as I reflect on the past two weeks, all I know is that I am a cheerful person blessed to have good friends that understand me and help me.  It has been a little rocky for me but I am behind the wheel of my life. I am taking charge and like my big brother says, never surrender.